I sort of just wanted to have a little chat with you guys about life for me at the moment. As you know I started this blog a year after I started my original blog, I had BIG ideas and BIG plans for this blog. Hell I had BIG plans and BIG ideas for 2016. As you’ve probably noticed seeing I haven’t posted on either of these sites in a month, and if you have been following me for a while on insta you’ll know I have been pretty quiet there too. So heard goes let me try talk myself out of it and make excuses.
Truth is I went it to 2016 with MASSIVE plans and expectations of how this year was going to play out, and things changed. Maybe I bit off more than I could chew, maybe this was always going to happen or maybe somewhere somehow there is just someone who gets a kick out of throwing a spanner in people lives and seeing how the cope. Truth is I have been struggling with depression for a number of years and I have always tried to just suppress it, keep busy and not deal with it. So when shit hit the fan in my personal life and through a spanner in all the amazing plans I had for this year I fell deep into my depression to the point I was barely getting out of bed to make it to work and I would come home and go back to bed again. One day during this month after a big argument I realised I had to admit it and it was time to seek help. I can’t do this alone anymore, Im not functioning .. I had no passion or motivation for life anymore, makeup and blogging which was something I loved became a chore. I’m not going to go into the little details and personal issues but it has all made a massive impact on how bad my mental health became, however this positive is that it all finally helped me realise I need to seek help. I need to deal with my issues rather than bottling them all up until I reach where I am now, feeling so numb and lost in life that I can’t do the basic task of living a “normal” life.
So plans for an AMAZING and MASSIVE 2016 are still on the cards, Im working on getting myself and these plans back on track. I want to ease myself back into my blogging and get the ball rolling with that too. I originally started this blog to expand myself and my genre but also as an online journal so to speak of travels that were on the cards for 2016 so my friends, family and followers could enjoy my journeys along with me. Now that part of it isn’t going to happy as quickly as I had hoped it would however I do have some really fun content I am now working on until that happens viagra sample pills.
I am not going to over commit myself and Im not going to promise you the world with a schedule so my posting over the next few months will be whenever I get the time to get inspired so I don’t break promises to you. This year isn’t going to become amazing over night, neither is my depression going to disappear that easy however it doesn’t work that easy. However I am committed to make a positive change and work on it all and hopefully everything will fall back onto the right tracks soon.
Thanks for sticking around to hear why I have been really distant in the last couple of months.